desperate

To my girls whom I love so much,

Things have not been working out for all of us lately. And it’s painful for me to see that you guys are hurting and crying behind each and every smile of yours. Smile like you mean it, and make my day girls.

To the girl that I’ve been with for six years,

Everytime you look outside the window, everytime you look somewhere far away, you’re in pain. And I can see that. But, I can’t do a fucking thing about it. I hate myself for being such a useless person.

Why can’t I do the same thing you did whenever I was feeling down? I’m so sorry girl.

Everything will work out for the better, trust me.

If he does love you, then he’ll be running back to you and apologize.

If he doesn't, then fuck him. He does not deserve you and you can do so much better than that.

To the girl that i enjoy being with so much,
Stop crying over the fact that he’s leaving next year and regretting about what you did that hurt him
Think about the time you have left with each other and make the best out of it.
Plus, his birthday is coming up, make it special and unforgettable. This means: do everything that you can,
even including birthday sex
Not that i'm saying you should do it, since i'm against sex before marriage.
Yes, i'm traditional and you love it.
Don't think that there is no one who would listen to you, i might not always be there when you need me but i am always willing to listen to you. I might not be much of a help but do know that i'll being sharing the pain with you.

When i'm not there, leave a message, or anything.

I'll read, wholeheartedly.

p.s @heyhestyy read this!

I accidentally posted this cause it sounds really good, for us :) 

Don’t complain!

sincerely- SEXIEST MALE ALIVE♥,

a hope

Look at him, he is so happy but looks freakin’ tired.

I know, he has a lot of crazy schedule and I do know that SM really forces him.  

God, please protect him. Don’t let him sick. 

life's about to change - happy graduation day♥

Our lives may change,
but our friendship will not,
Today we may part ways
But you will be in my heart today and always,
Best of luck for your future.

Happy graduation day baby :)

How does it feel being on the top of the world, graduate? Congratulations! Congratulations, dear…! You’ve really done yourself! 

I just stalking you, and found your graduation photo on the top of my newsfeed. I’m so happy and proud of you. Finally, a year has passed. Ah~ time passes so quickly. I didn’t even realize it. People changed, life changed, all changed. Somehow, I never know it could be like this dude. But one thing you need to know, whatever happens, until whenever, I’ll always support you. And I will try my best. And I’ll be something that always there for you, whenever you need me.

 

It must be a very proud moment for you. All the hard work you have put in has paid off. Your reward lies ahead. Have a successful future. Looking back, it was all worth it.
Finally a Graduate!^^

Best of luck for a wonderful future! You dreamt, you strived and you are there. Keep up the good work. You are brilliant, able and ambitious. 

 

You shall always walk the glory road.

Never forget your true goal!

Always aim for the stars!
I wish you the best in life! 

You truly deserve the success, and with such efforts you are sure to earn more. Keep up the good work baby ^^ Some are dreamers, some are talented. You are both. May you achieve more success ahead. Once again, Congratulations on your graduation. 

Whether it is day or night,
let the sun in your heart always shine bright!

Best of luck for a bright future!

remember, GOD  always with us :)

 my delusional side ever think that i would be there on the graduation day, but yeah i shud separate  reality and expectation. 

mr.simple

no comment. he's just amazing as ever♥

new york :)

 

guys, welcomeback to NY city - the Empire State of Mind. yes. The most crowded side of the world. i swear you guys really enjoy the view. but please, take care of your self. the weather is not really good. and you have to be the greatest performer.

mister jungsoo, please take care all your son. please protect my boy. and the most important thing, protect yourself. 

good things always with us

show them, who is the LAST MAN STANDING

I miss what was supposed to happen yesterday.

Don’t wait until it’s too late,
To tell someone how much you love,
How much you care.
Because when they’re gone,
No matter how loud you shout and cry,
They won’t hear you anymore.

 I don’t know where I have to start write this stupid things. Just, I’m in a very bad feeling. I’m sorry for all the bad things that I ever did. I swear I really didn’t mean it.

Actually, I miss you guys. SO DAMN FREAKIN MISSES YOU. But I don’t know, half of my body just doesn’t wanna feel it. It’s really confusing. I don’t know how to tell you two. I’m not ready yet. I don’t like a farewell. HATE IT! And I’m not ready when someday you left me and than slowly forget me. This is crazy.

Let me tell you something. Those 2 years was really amazing. Feels like you are the best thing I ever had. But I was so blinding that I never see the truth. You said that I’m your best friend and we were doing the happiest friend-ship. HAHAHA I guess friend-shit sounds better. Okay, I’m a hypocritical. I gave everything I can. Energy, time, money, love, affection, kindness and everything! I already gave it to you guys. But seem that you never appreciate it. So sad huh ?

Did you remember when I was in an accident? MY LEG ALMOST BROKE INTO PIECES. I ALMOST DIE BECAUSE OF THAT SHOCKING ACCIDENT.

DID YOU KNOW?

I’m so grateful that my leg was okay and I’m not dead. That time, I imagined that you came and bring me something and gave me some supported sentence. Yes, the accident happened because of my fault. And so lucky that I’m not guarantied in the hospital. And I’m very very understood that you guys freakin busy with bimbel things. But HEY, I’m in the house, feel the pain ALONE. Don’t you guys want to visit me? Or just see my broken leg? I was immensely disappointed. WHY? hey, I always spend my time just for you, but then, you didn’t spend little time for me. WHAT KIND OF FRIEND-SHIP IS THAT? Yes, it called FRIEND-SHIT!  You know, from that moment, I recognized 1 thing;’ you are not my best friend’. This is really sad reality. I do know it before but I keep positive thinking. I always said to my self that “okay, come on hest, keep positive. You have to accept them. You have to appreciate. Keep their feeling and not to hurt them.” That word was stuck on my mind. Such a powerful words. But then, I understand something. A good friend is someone who always on your side no matter happens. There always 2 sides. You know, someone give and someone take. But when you always gave and no take part, I bet the relation is not working. But, it’s okay. I don’t mind. I’m really fine right now. As you can see I’m slowly gone.

Now, you are busy with your life. And where am I? HELL.

Actually, I’m okay. Even you did bad things, I still accept you for who you are. I don’t know. I really want to text you first, but I’m pretty tired. Why? Because, even I text you 1000 times, it would be the same. Useless huh?

I remember that time. After a very long time, No text, no call, no fb, no tweet. NO COMMUNICATION. Then God unites us in some gathering. I REALLY HATED THAT PART.

After long time, we have no communication, all you said just “ HEY, WHERE IS MY SHIRT?” OH MY GODNESS!

All you can say just WHERE-THE-HECK-IS-MY-FUCKIN’-SHIRT?

-_________-

I WAS SO UNBEARABLE SHOCK. FOR GOD’s SAKE. Instead of asking ‘hey, how you doin’? miss me?”

Okay, it showed clearly that our friend-ship really sucks. No balances.

Sometimes I wondering “hey guys, actually how did you feel when you are around me ? were you happy because I always give my maximum affection to you or you just trick me and lie behind me ? did I important to you ? “

who would have thought it would end up like this ?

And now, we are doing an invisible farewell. Slow but sure. Maybe you already find another that better than me. Yes, I just thinking, it’s impossible that you guys spend your whole life just with me-this unimportant role. I wish you never forget me. I wish you happiness, success and everything. I really hate GOODBYE. I want to say goodbye but it’s so hard for me. Because another part of my body, just don’t want to let you go. I’m officially quit. I’m quit for everything. Love and affection. Maybe outside, there will be someone who need it more than you. I’ll keep it. And someday, we will meet again. In another occasion and another time with a brand new soul. I just wish it comes quickly. SEE YOU SOON. I’m gonna miss you all

P.s if you read this, just want you know that I’m waiting for text and call. Thanks xoxo

you'll be back gege :)

Some moments bring us together, some moments tear us apart & some moments change us forever.

Ah~ nice feeling. This morning I saw gege on national TVshow. I dunno why, it’s just feeling so great. Just seeing him on TV, already made my whole day. His eyes, his smile, his voice, his body. He really grows well :) I know he does. Never in my life, I’m seeing someone then suddenly I shed tears. Yes it’s real, I’m not kidding. Those sprinklers just came out. I was like, “hey what’s going on? why am I crying?”

Maybe you all said that I’m crazy. Why did I cry because someone on tv that he doesn’t even know me. YES! I wanna make it clear. I’m crying. I shed tears. For God sake I don’t care and I don’t mind if you call me alay, lebay, galau or whatever! You just don’t know their story. You don’t know how gege face those things.

I’m just a Fan but I do know them. I do really know how it feels. Entertainment industries is really unpredictable. And I know, gege do his best. He sacrificed everything, his feeling and other feeling. It’s even sadder when you see gege in the stage without the boys. The boys really lost him. Me too! The memories between them~ ah T^T

They have passed the hard times together. Doing such a great performance, doing everything together, lovely-couple. And now, they are separated by a great wall of china. They are in the different path. Really miss each other but do not know how to express.

feeling so hurt when one the MC greats him with Korean language “annyeong haseyo” then he just said “don’t great me like that, just use Chinese language, ni hao”

*JLEB* his statement really made me cry.It means that he doesn’t like it. Everything related with korea.

Ahhhh gege~ wae ? it’s too hurt to remember huh ? but, you have a very awesome memories with the boy. Don’t you remember it ?

Maybe you do not know. We really miss those days. When you can smile happily after the show ended. When you are happy on stage and throw your kiss for us. We really miss you but we really understand and really appreciate. Whatever it is, we certainly support you. We are family forever.

I know I’ll see you all again with the group.

I know that I just have to wait and soon

Nothing’s impossible if we all believe.

Though it will take so much time; Though it will require so much faith.

Sometimes you just have to believe. To be certain without reason, to have faith in the unseen

I will keep hanging on.

Because whatever happens, you are all parts of the world we are in.

And nothing – not even a contract, the army, or acting – can topple that truth.

Separation is an inevitable part of this fandom. And I can’t do anything with that.

Because even though I tried to just not care and not just hope,

I still wish that you’ll be back.

I’m so grateful. I’d have lived my whole life trough, lost forever if I never knew you guys. Thank you so much guys. It’s just an honor for me to have you inside. Got 15 times more of Love, Smile, Miracle, Happiness, and Perfection. You never fail to make me laugh and you also never fail to make me fall in love with you over and over again. One of the most reasons why I love you guys is because they make me smile not only with my lips but also with my heart. You guys are really precious :)

Thank you for everything~

Lots of love♥ 

 Ps. some parts of the text are not mine :) thanks to miss cheonsa ^^