2012

To Last Year Crush,

Everyone told me to not get too attached. It's only for last year, they said. Don't make it harder to say goodbye than it has to be. I couldn't help it, though. I fell for you too fast- too hard. Now I'm back in the real world, and I don’t know where you are, perhaps 1000 miles away from me. I try so hard to keep myself from talking to you- it will only make things worse- but how could I ever forget you? I can't even fall asleep without hearing you call my name from the bottom of my flat. Hard to believe that what seems like the days we have spent apart have really only been a few months. I only knew you for one month, but even our first week together I liked you more than I ever thought I could like someone. This distance is slowly eating away at me. If I don't talk to you soon I might just melt away...

Missing you so much it hurts

missed

Dear Quick Love,

Stalked you on Facebook the other day, hardcore. Big mistake. Her name, her face, her age, I can see it all- it's the girl you're hooking up with. I look on your wall and I see posts from her friends. I look at your pictures and I see you smile with her happily. She's really... pretty. And I resent you for it and her and the fact that I still like you yet feel like you will never like me the same way. But then I think, haven't I hooked up with other guys? Liked  other guys, even? But I still always remember you, like you, wait for you, in that same little place in the back of my mind; as if I packed my feelings for you in a box and placed them in the attic for safekeeping. Is that how you feel too? Who am I kidding? Guess it's about time I got a reality check and realized there's a reason why they call it "quick love"... silly me, thinking I could make it last all year long. 

sincerely

i miss you

intrigued

Dear Buddy,

I am so into you and I'm not sure if it is a good thing or a bad thing.

Every time we meet I learn something new about you, but it isn't enough for me to get a good read on you.

I know you are a good person, I know you are unbelievably sweet but I know absolutely nothing else.

I want to know.

I crave it.

Maybe, I'm craving you.

and it's all because you are so damn intriguing.

So mysterious.

So... Buddy.

So please, keep coming around me so that I can learn these things about you.

Or maybe you could just speed up the process and ask me to dinner.

It doesn't have to be a date.. I mean I like food, you like food it just seems like a good idea.

Sincerely,

Someone who hopes to see you again... very soon.

The Reason I like you ?

Because it’s you. 

Just you. 

That’s the only reason.

I wish I knew. 

Then I could figure out how to stop liking you.

If I can’t avoid it, I only want one thing — to stay as a friend who doesn't change.

for heartache— for love