still wonderin '

If we're apart for a long period of time would we still know each other's hearts?? At the midpoint of love and separation, who are we standing on top of it? Who should be the one forgiving, who should be the one loving and who should be the one that should be hurting?

I've grown up to be more and more attached to you. My happiness is when I'm with you fooling around in the silliest ways, or talking about the nerdiest things ever, or simply watching you do some stupid stuff just to make me laugh. Unfortunately, you're too busy having fun all by yourself and your new life. Every single freaking day, I wake up early to wait and wait. For what? To see you come school and tell about your lovey-dovey-girl. That is what I do every single fucking day. Wait, get pushed away and wait. Every now and then, you would remember that I still exist, so you would tell me to accompany you to find a good stuff to your lovey-dovey. You know very gooddamn well that I can never choose the best, because it comes up with your choice again. Right now, you're the most important person to me.
So why, for fuck sakes. Why is it that you can't spend some fucking time with me anymore? I miss the old days, where I'm just a kid and you would spend the entire day to play with me. Don't tell me that I've changed. I've just gotten older; you are the one who has changed. To be a stranger to me.

So tonight, although I've cried and will continue to cry until I fall asleep. Tomorrow, I won't even wait for you. I will detach myself from you and grow up. Better for you & me.

I thought about you again today. There is nothing that can stop me from thinking about you. Even if I tried to pretend like I'm interested in someone else. At the end of the day, you're still the one that I missed the most.

"Don’t ever love, heartbreak will surely come.
It hurts to even breathe.

I thought that this would only hurt as much as I loved.

But I was wrong. It hurts a thousand times more"

- 'Don't Love', Lee Hong Ki

You don't care about me anymore because
you've probably got a new chick to follow after.
Stop making stupid excuses. I'm not that naive.