Everything and Nothing
If I was of no interest to you,
why seek me out?
If you felt no connection,
why let me in,
even if only for a little while?
You don't share family videos with strangers.
Especially not that one.
If you detested my queries,
why did you reply thoughtfully?
If we had nothing in common,
why lead me to new finds?
If you didn't want me to grow,
why challenge me constantly?.
If you didn't want me to be interested in you,
why the jealousy?
If you wanted me to be interested why push me away?
If you found me perfect,
why seek to destroy?
If you found me flawed,
why not support?
If I am everything to you (and I don't believe for a minute that I am), why won't you talk with me?
If I am nothing to you,
why so much about projection about my feelings?
If you want me out of your life,
why so much bait?
If you are not here,
why are you reading this?
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I don't believe you didn't care.
I don't disbelieve this was malicious sport.
I don't believe you are incapable of feeling nothing.
I don't disbelieve you are capable of feeling nothing.
I believe in your pain
presence
absence
horror
beauty
apathy
obsession
love
contempt
capacity
damage
spirit
emptiness
existentialism
insanity
I validate your validity.
I validate your invalidity.
I would not make love to you,
as an act of love.
I would spread my legs for you,
in the absence of love.
I love who you aren't.
I fear who you are.
I'm not lying.
Yes, I am.
No, I'm not.
Confused?
Don't be.
Because you and I both know
no matter who we are
in the bodies we inhabit
and the lives we blunder through
the love and beauty we make,
the hate and anger
we fail to suppress,
the fear and confusion
we engender,
none of this
has anything to do with
what our souls understand
without us.
Whatever that is.
anonymous—
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